little girl without eyebrows

she is only 8 years old
father and mother divource and she was kept under mother's custody
she was refereed as found many bruise on body

a small world play by her during our 2nd time meeting

SWP: Enter another Chapter of Life

i am having an opportunity to do my expressive sandplay with Dr. Diana
i name this tray as Entering another cahpter of life

as u can see, the tray actually  the below tray, the pink lady with a man is bottom
the marriage couple and the gate is top
then the red flowering is left hand side
the other;s is right hand side

as seeing at the tray,i am looking at myself moving from uncoscious to more conscious
i have no sense that i had getting married, and now i am realizing, i start moving to another life
this is a long process for myself, as i am taking a long way to say "YES" to my bf.
engaging in a relationship is about "2 people", no more 1 people matters


opening up another chapter of life...
i am wondering for myself
what will be going on, after entering the entrance??
hmm...looking forward
time will tells.......when i moved along

she love her

 

she made this small world play

she is with her, her is a lover of she
she  is having stress as relationship with her was unaccepted by the community. people attacking her, just like the green and yellowish soldier at the corner.


she think, her love towards a sam gender is genuine
 they don;t hurt anyone. but WHY people surrounding her keep attack her.




we talked a lot about the issues
before she leave. she make some changes of her tray
she put in a lovely fairy figure with hand clasped together


she say: my parents know about this, that i am in love with a women and we are together. my parents give us blessing and they don't really say anything about this, but telling me "you are my daughter, as long as you are happy, we will be happy for you"

Mandala

This is my own small world play for: sandplay experience 4th session

Mandala is a Sanskritword for “magic circle.”

Self-created mandalas are reflections of my own inner self in the moment and are symbolic of my potential for change and transformation.

Carl Jung is credited with introducing the concept of the mandala toWestern thought and believed that mandalas represented one's total personality. In this tray, i am seeing my own mandala as transformation stage, it's lead me to attain higher level in my soul searching. I name this tray as "awakening eyes in blue"

Initially, i would like to create a small hill and wishing to put a star on the top. but the sand keep droping and it's really irritating me. Then, finally i smash the little hill down to flat,

Then, i used a stick to draw the cirle with the line untill i feel really calm and in mood. I think i draw it from "out to in" with clockwise direction. I didn't realize how many times i had draw the circle line, but i am stop at the point i feel good, i stop at the feeling "peace" inside of me.

i choose to start with the centre, first

i dunno what should i put, i am searching untill i saw this blue eys, i pick it up and then put the blue eyes just right at the centre. Following by shape of love, there is total eight "heart" shape.

Sspecifi meaning "heart with eight" meaning the EightFold path as teaching in Buddhism

The Dharmma knowldege about the Four Nobles Truth

when i looking at this shape again, i felt being accept, i felt significant

The Eight Shape = Eightfold Path which is

(1) Right Understanding

(2) Right Thought

(3) Right Speech

(4) Right Action

(5) Right Livelihood

(6) Right Effort

(7) Right Mindfulness

(8) Right Concentration

with the teaching of Buddha, with the Dharmma i am holding, i know, i am holding on to the principe, to the ethics, to the knowledge and skill, the ability within myself. Last time i am trying so hard, but now, i am willing to follow the process, go with the flow. It is always there, but it make me more aware, i am understanding and concentrate better.

The pink colour crystal stone was make in round by 10.

it's represent myself - X10

the purple colour is about me too, i make it in round with 10.

The third layer is blue colour about my age in lunar calendar. i was born in Boar year, and i am actually 28th .... .... i make it as 30th..as i am reaching to this age soon. In my life, it is always full, but there will not be "always full", even moon somehow will be not full, so, i take this life as it will empty somehow... Just i want myself be more aware of what i am doing, knowing about knowing.

In between, when looking at the corner of my tray, i had put 4 different type of flower. The flower is lovely. Alex last time doing facilitating with SWP Team about the card, the story, there is about symboly and metaphore. Flower in fairy tale always lovely. In reality flower is sweet, but it won't stay permanent. Flower is just as LIFE, was so fragile, and flowers need to be take care by gardener then only it will be grown shrinkly, blossom
I am just like the gardener, would like to take care of my own flower, let's the flower able to shrink, to blossoms....

Hmmm....well,

When i am looking at this mandala again, i feel connected with my own soul

I know, this is definitely an uncounscious tray. At the beginning, i am not sure what i want to do with the tray untill i make it out? when the trainer asked me to start to process, i really stuck and i don't know what i want to say about my own creation.

Dr, Diana told me looked at the tray, try to connect to the unconscious, no hurry, and don't rush. maybe i am not able to find that out, but it is OK. I feel secure and contain, when she told me no hurry, no rushing. it doens;t meant i need to process it right away...

i make this on 13th march 2010

today, 5th April 2010

i am able to connect with myself deeply.

i am stable, i am aware, and i am looking.

i can take care different part of the flower,

i have the energy to stabilize, to balance, to secure it up.

i feel peace and ease.

with the teaching of Buddha, i was walking in middle path

with the knowledge of human psychology,

i have no fear with the case i encounter

i walk with principe, ethics, and with practice of awareness

i learn about myself,

i learn about my connectivity with people and things around me

i learn just be here and now...

just be myself.

i will just admit if there is weakness, i have no afraid

i am willing to learn

when i am not knowing , i am knowing more

when i am knowing more...i am not knowing

thanks to Alex, thanks to CPPD, thanks to Dr.Diana Expressive Sandplay

Thank you friends and family

you all make mylife full, and complete.

i will be more prioritize with my own soul care system

this is my promise to my soul.

wishing every one happy, be in good health.

by

X10