split

my sand tray - SPLIT
this is where you look down, my small world play

the top is the tree, with two little mermaid
then a guardian angel in white
beside the 2 guardian angel, have 2 mask
up and down in different possition
one is blue colour, while other one in red colour

there is jewel container open
and middle of the blue circle i name it as "eye"

8 surrounding the eye, 10 marble surrounding link with the container
the little 2 mermaid and the two human figure at corner each.

my tray - SPLIT


named was given SPLIT, sometimes i felt there is 2 of me
look similar, but i know under the faces of similarity, there is differences

i know i have the dark side, and bright side
i know there is masculine and feminie side
i know i have self where compassion and non-compassion
i know where is my personal and professional boundary

SPLIT, sometimes, really make me confused. shall i wear this mask?
or shall i not?
i know that is not me, but i show to the world with my untruthful persona
what if i show with my real self, without mask and not following the instruction from management level? will i have a difficult time here? the culture here is Follow the LAW as it say so, no comment, listen and DO. but, what if the instruction is wrong? and the things is not relevant at all with what i am doing?

i yet to  figure out.
letting my "eye" to see what is real

i know, if i want to run away, i can hide inside the container
i can open and close it up tooo...
no right, no wrong.. ...
just listen to what is the basic principal
where i HOLD.